Being overweight is never something I really like discussing as I have different opinions to a lot of other plus size women. I’m all for us chunky yet funky girls sticking together, but on the other hand I feel like I’m promoting and arguing unhealthiness.
Lets get down to basics. I’m not big boned, I’m not healthy but big. I just ate a lot of crap for a long time without any or little exercise. With basic logic I’m being unhealthy and harming my body. I don’t want to affect my own health from gluttony, I want to be able to be active, fit into smaller clothes and know I’m not giving myself dangerous health conditions. I want to live as long as I possibly can with the people I love.
I have always known I was bigger but it didn’t really bother me in such a way until me and my partner decided we wanted to start a family. I want to be healthy to not have as many compilations for this little one I am going to bring into this world. I don’t want to pass on my unhealthy bad habits to her and affect her health.
This is quite a deep and personal post but I want to get my feelings out there. I know a lot of people won’t agree with my opinions but everyone is different, everyone thinks different. This is how I think.
So when we starting thinking about possibly starting a family, I joined Slimming World. I did amazing when I started and nearly lost 2 stone, I then stayed around the same for a bit and began to lose motivation. The picture above is my progress where I lost the most and you can see a difference so much. I only put on about 4-5lbs before finding out I was pregnant. I was overjoyed and filled with love for this tiny human I was growing. I knew I was still big and wanted to be as healthy as possible.
I was quite ill with my pregnancy at the beginning as I have mentioned before so I won’t go into too much detail but the morning sickness and dizziness was too much to bare. I couldn’t eat a lot if at all for a while. I was so worried about how this was affecting the baby but found out she will take everything she needs from me. I also have been put under a consultant and getting monitored more. I’m kind of happy about that though because I am a massive worry wart.
In my initial assessment and conversation the consultant said during pregnancy for overweight women all of the extra risks are reduced by 80% if you have zero weight gain. Guess what? From my sickness and wanting to give my baby healthy food I hadn’t put on a single pound. I was exactly the same as when I got pregnant. I was overjoyed as this is 5 months in, over half way.
I am over the moon that my actions have had an affect on mine and the babies health already and I want to continue to do this. When she finally pops out and is welcomed to the world, I am committed to smashing the weight loss. I will continue at Slimming world and trying to incorporate exercise into my life. I want to be a mum that can run around with their children and play without getting out of breathe. I want to encourage my little girl to be healthy, active and happy.
I have had a few things that affected my pregnancy like poor sleep and back problems which the doctors have said could be from the extra weight that I carry but I knew that would be a part of the pregnancy anyway. I’m happy to cope with that and find ways to improve this as I continue the pregnancy.
I want to do better by her and myself. I’m putting myself first, my health first and want to change my life.
Thanks so much if you get to the end of this essay it seems. I would love to know your experiences in the comments below.